Have been sleeping for sometime and thought I will just pen down stuff which has happened in the last couple of months… College this year is much fun than it was last year and I am liking it, if not enjoying to the full extent… Term paper, ShARE work, classes and hanging around is actually keeping me busy and not giving me any time to think about myself, good in one way that I do not have to crib about my past and my present state…
People claim that I am a pretty disgusting person who irritates others a lot, who uses others a lot just for his vested interest, who is pathetically shameless J. I like criticisms because its good to hear something other than straight forward and rude… Those adjectives have become pretty old and mundane too… May be my diplomacy has crossed all limits that I have become shameless J. But yes, I wish, the lesser mortals could understand such… Being superficial and not letting others peep inside me has been my nature and its nothing new… Because I shudder that once I let you peep inside me I will be shattered during a phase of emotional downturn… People fail to see the sensitive side of me, the beautiful side of me, the different myself… sob sob!
After coming back to Delhi, I have realized that its only 7 more months of living this dream – Delhi School of Economics… When I go back to my second year of college I just remember how much I wanted to be in this place and now when I see myself, I realize that its another 7 months… I want to make the most of it so that I can recollect each moment in my vacant and pensive mood… When lonely and with no company these memories bring back a smile on your frown face… And for lesser mortals like me, these memories are not associated with any pains….
Things are looking different and also beautiful and clueless too… Wonder why….? Keep wondering !
