R = Ronit R= Romance

My last blog seemed to have been a pretty depressing and hence so many, why, what, how, when etc. questions coming in… Yes it was depressing because a few incidents did turn me off, but then again you get along with life because nothing stops because you are hurt… All that you can do is to learn from your experiences and make it a point that it is never repeated… That’s what I did and like Srijita said, I should start trusting people, I do trust people, but there are things other that trust which can affect you, something which is apparently less important than trust but can be more painful. But the good part is that its now over and I have grown stronger!

Things are going good and the feeling of satisfaction still rules over me…Dance bar experience to getting heady with friends on a night when its drizzling and the cool breeze is blowing -- was just amazing. In a weather where its drizzling, cool breeze is blowing and everything is silent you would probably love to be with someone and enjoy those moments of togetherness and enjoy the serenity of the weather outside and the warmth of the situation! The weather was so damn romantic that it would turn an unromantic bastard to God of Love, Romance, Passion etc etc..

The dance bar experience needs special mention and I know a lot many conclusions will follow, but I would love to hear them…!

We all decided that we would go for dinner and as planned we decided to go to the Dhaba’s which are there on Wadala Road. Reaching there we saw that it was bustling with people and there were innumerable Dhaba’s in that area. All of the Dhaba’s proudly announced “BAR AND RESTAURENT” and “AC AND NON AC”. It was very humid and so we chose to go for the AC part of the B&R. A guard awaited at the shady gate and another inside. We were directed upstairs towards a locked room which has frosted glass. We could hear loud music and could see some lights flashing. The guard, on being enquired said that orchestra is being played and we were all delighted to enjoy the music. The door was unlocked and to our surprise we saw three ‘beauty queens’ dancing and singing. Shocked and surprised we were, we didn’t know what to do and decided to tactfully deal with the situation and left the place in a few minutes to go to the bar part of the shady place, which was on the ground floor. We stayed there for a while and tried to get over the shocking experience we had a while back and then left for another amazing place which was extremely costly but it probably had the best décor I have seen in the recent times!

So on the whole it was a different sort of experience and since that experience I have been observing all places having B&R tag and it seemed to me that most of them have a part which would entertain their customers!

Strange city, strange experience….for a change!

Wonder If I....

I wonder if I can ever fall in love…

I wonder if I’ll ever get some genuine and good friends…

I wonder if I’ll get someone who will have something called self-control…

Wondering, what is this guy upto? Yeah, its true, I don’t have a confidante and that is what lacks badly in my life..

Being reserved by nature has worked against me and has never helped me in anyway… I see people going out of their way and sharing their view points, their emotions and thoughts, but I just can’t. It takes so much of time for me to open up…. I have so many things to say, but I just end up being silent.

Will I ever get anyone who will make me talk? Who’ll ever make me feel comfortable? Who’ll ever understand me in and out…?

Leaving aside my Mother, no one has yet understood me or no one has yet trie to understand me, something which I will repent. If I can take the pain of knowing someone, why can’t someone else?

I think it’s got to do with something more than a friend; I need more of a confidante than a friend to know me!

Peddat Road, Chems Corner – a beautiful area and amazing apartments – all sea facing just allured me and I was spellbound – beautifully decorated, well maintained and above all the sea and the beautiful pet dog of my aunt just added to the beauty of everything…

I believe no one is perfect – and I think I am one who will experience a lot of things and will be devoid of someone to share the experiences with – other that these blogs!

What I have now on my face is a Monalisa smile ! Can anyone help...?

Shameless change...

A screwed up score of 55%, a dark future still am smiling and enjoying each moment of my work and each moment of my life… It is so damn satisfying that I cannot even express… Marks and fat salary are so damn conventional! I think I am getting used to the concept of live in the present and deal with the future later…Enjoy the present…Don’t let the future worries spoil your wonderful and happy present life…! Also, don’t live in your past!

Life without tension can be so damn fun that I cannot even tell you… I don’t know if this change is welcome change or not but it makes me feel so different and so fresh everyday…

A decision which I have taken is that I would stick to the corporate world and I am not interested in academics any more… Have been into too much of it for the last 16 years so I think its time for something different and something new…

Marks cannot determine your life and it’s important that one should realize that… Career should be of utmost important but one should not mix their personal life and professional life… Career aspirations on one hand and personal aspirations on the other… Time management is important so that you do the right thing at the right time! I hope the smart ones have understood what I am trying to say…

I don’t want to get back to Delhi; I just hate that place…
Another thing, slow and romantic songs don’t make me sad anymore… It takes me to the dreamland where I can weave many beautiful dreams…Wish they come true!

Update....?

Wish if things will continue to work out smoothly at my end… Life without tension, anxiety and worries, who doesn’t look forward to such an life? The last two days were not comforting for me… My PG owner is closing down his PG business and so that means I have to search for a fresh accommodation once I get back to HELL– a major pain in the ass. But yes, the good thing is that this time I might get to choose an accommodation of my type – the type I had always wanted… But I shudder to go back and stay alone… I am scared at the thought of staying all alone with no one to talk and chat also… But I guess something good will come out of it this way or that way, so lets see what happens…

I will have to give a PPT next week – my first PPT and I am looking forward to it. It might not be all that creative and astounding, but as a fresher I will make an honest attempt to cover up the designing pitfalls with the content…

Have become a complete movie and pizza buff and can actually criticize some of the movies which I see these days…. Metro was a really good experience which reflects some of the complications of a modern life style, mid life crisis, extra marital affair, urge to earn money etc etc..… It actually shows some of my fears and anxiety that I might have to go through in future… But yes, on the whole a good movie which goes on to prove that not everyone in life is successful… Again being successful or not is a relative concept…

Ek Challis Ki Last Local – my biggest mistake to see that movie! So I better not waste the reader’s energy…

I think that’s it for the time being… More to come….Keep watching!

Be the change... Feel the difference...

Each moment brings to you an opportunity to realize your faults or stupidities and to do something new...

Sea brings to me immense pleasure and it brings back a lot of old and beautiful memories… Memories which I had buried long back and never wanted to remember flashes back, but surprisingly it doesn’t hurt me or affect me… It rather brings back a smile on my face… At times I am surprised to see the change, because these used to be the source of depression in my life and it doesn’t affect me adversely anymore! I smile when I remember them…

I have been lecturing people a lot these days as to how they should look at life and especially as to why its important to have a dynamic view of life. My aim is not to change their way or life or thinking, it is just an attempt to bring some happiness and excitement in their life… I don’t know if I’ll be misunderstood by any of them… I know this is not done and should not be a part of me, but a change is a gradual process…. I have started changing and complete change will take sometime….

Discos – they have been my off-late interest and I do want to check them out and I will. My parents will be a bit “aaaahhhhh” with the idea, but I guess everything should be tried once in life… I consider it as an experience and the more experience you have the better it is for you…The more matured you are and the more progressive you are…. Each moment is a learning experience and each moment brings to you so much to experience that you don’t want to waste your time on stupid mundane things in life….To meet new people, to implement new ideas, to think differently….and so on and so forth…The more new things and new ideas you are exposed to the wider will be your thought process…

What else…more to write… But…LATER!

Realizations...Experiences...News...

Speed boating, water skiing….could I ever think of these a year back? Looks and might sound scary but the adrenaline burst after the boating / skiing is just too intense… Your heart throbs and your hands become cold when you get on to that, but once you set sail, it’s just too much fun… Adventure is mostly fun… Will be (water) skiing next week and I hope that it is just another amazing experience to make you smile for a really long time, that feeling of satisfaction and that feeling of happiness can be had from these little adventures and happiness does not always come from big achievements…

To some people, satisfaction comes from enjoying someone else’s company, but to me satisfaction comes from small things in life which I have never done before, can come from something big also, but haven’t come across that big thing yet..!

It’s important that we keep alive the child in us so that our life is not dull and mundane… It’s important that we realize that there is a positive side of every negative thing happening and once we look at that positive side of the negative incident, life becomes more enjoyable and more fun filled and you become a more matured person and complete and you will get over with any negative down turn quickly, trust me it works!

That life is not just only a means of earning money and leading a conventional family life but that it involves a lot many things which one should experience and feel is so damn important for everyone to realize, and I pity those who do not realize this and make themselves a money making machine…. Why do we do something which everyone does, why not we try doing something that’s totally different and new, something which we never thought off before (refer to blog-entry about inhibitions)…. Enjoy each moment and see the beauty of it and feel the difference… Every moment brings to you an opportunity and it is upto us to make full use of it and achieve the most of it…

Now let me tell you all something other than my realizations (and philosophy), that is, I will now blabber about my work and how ‘bad’ is my mentor… Well, my guide is not actually bad at all. He is a lovely person who makes it a point that I actually understand each bit of everything that he assigns me and makes sure that I do all my desk work properly. So there is no scope I can fool him, and why should I, if I do it, it’ll be my loss. I am getting paid to learn something, so why not make most out of it… Its just that I sometimes feel irritated with the work load, but then again, this is NOTHING compared to what future has in store for me. So I should take a cue from this as to what my future can be like…

My office is damn cool and is definitely equipped with all the modern amenities one could think of. The food, as I was told, is not so marvelous, but yes, I am definitely getting to eat better food than what I get to eat in Delhi…

People here in Mumbai are very helpful and almost everyone will help you with the bus routes and train routes… Not only that they’ll make sure to remind you to get down at the right station when the station arrives they will also end up chatting with you, so much so that you will want them to keep shut after a point of time, can we think of this helpful attitude in Delhi? There people will probably send you in the opposite direction or will be very rude with you… There is a way of saying “I don’t know”, which Mumbai people will tell you sweetly but Delhi people won’t… Surely, Delhi is still a bad place to live and I would never ever want to settle there….

Love the sea, love the sound of the waves hitting the land and love the cool breeze…. After a long time I did had a meeting with the sea and didn’t want the meeting to be so short lived… Guess there will be another one in the near future and hope that it’ll be a real long one…!

Finally...

Finally I am in Mumbai…. The flight from Calcutta was very pleasant and extremely satisfying especially becasue of the hospitality of Kingfisher Airlines, which added cherry to the cake…Though the end of my short stay in Calcutta was really satisfying and I learnt a lot at the thirteenth hour, the start of my stay at Mumbai was not great simply because Kingfisher ‘lost’ my bag. However, it was not so and it was discovered where the bags were lying in about 90 minutes… So I learnt how to fight with airline officials and to do what when such a situation arises… Good, right? I am getting to face every situation and I kind of learning how to tackle them...Feels so good…

Accommodation is definitely better than my Delhi accommodation and the other flat mates and room mates are also accommodating. People in Mumbai are far better than those in Delhi and much more helpful. Auto drivers are also good and they don’t take you for a ride.... Weather is like Calcutta with pleasant evenings…Mumbai is a good place and I am loving(!) it. Could I ever think of going out at 2’o’clock in the night for a walk and for a drink in Calcutta; never! But I just went for it carefree without second thoughts, and it was nice to see how life works at night… There were loads of taxis and buses were plying and there were some food joints which were bustling with customers… And the weather then was just too good…! I haven’t checked out the night life of Mumbai, but I will very soon and will let you all know about it!

My joining has been postponed by a day and so I will get to see my swanky office tomorrow… So more about it tomorrow!

Since it was an off day for me, I went to my cousin’s place and I just loved the place… Wonderful design, good locality and amazing view…! Have decided one thing…no matter what, wherever I get posted in future, I will take up a good flat and stay… If you have a good place to stay you can do a lot of stuff… My own place to stay, my very own place to stay…

Mumbai trip till now has been satisfying and I have over come feelings like home sickness and all and it’s a good sign… And I also think I have started looking at the positive side of the bad things, what say?