Sunday, April 29, 2007

Complexities....

What defines me? This is something which has been going on in my mind, doesn’t carry much of meaning, but yeah I am trying to find an answer…

A quiet day spent thinking and the more I thought the more questions I had and I found the answers to most of them J… The other’s I am still looking for!

I abused the person who discovered the concept of suspicion, the concept of jealousy -- because it turns some of the best relations bitter, sour, acetic, salty etc etc... So much so that people stop talking, even stop seeing each others face and sometimes even turn their back! Have we ever thought of how much of space suspicion occupies in our heart / mind? What are the implications of occupying so much memory?

I know the consequences, because I have been the victim of suspicion both ways – have been suspected and have been suspecting. First, you become tremendously in secured about the person about whom you are suspicious. You have this suppressed anger, a billion questions to ask the person and with each passing moment the number of question increases, you are always irritated and that sweet smile which used to be there on your face is lost somewhere and you have a frown which is not at all appreciable… Negativity sets in and there is an urge to do something nasty (at times)… Now why do we suspect, well I have suspected because I was too hesitant to ask question thinking about what the other person might think and what could be the possible consequence of asking that question. Come on friends, let’s understand this simple thing that there is no harm asking questions and clarifying all the doubts that you might have... It prevents bitterness to creep in, it stops misunderstandings to set it (yes, suspicion is a major cause of misunderstandings) and so on and so forth... Those who are questioned, they feel that they are being suspected, but understand the insecurity / reason behind asking that question. Why can’t we make an attempt to help the other person get rid of this suspicion so that we all can live happily? We just need to talk to each other; we need to spend time with each other… Are we so busy that we cannot even spend some time with our loved ones? Well, spending less time is definitely not the only reason for suspicion… And yes, there can be instances where one suspects the other without any rhyme or reason, I really don’t know how to deal with those, but would like to know such a ‘creature’ for a very short span of time…Because in the long run, they can be a major pain!

I have realized that it’s always a good deal to speak your mind and get the answer of all the questions that you might have… I have seen that suspicion arising out of spending less time, the anger; the frustration arising out not getting the adequate attention can be taken care of if we spend some time with the loved one….! Getting your doubts clarified can get you back that beautiful smile, can give you back that mental peace and can make you happy and make you love…

I have realized that no matter how big we become, we need to spend time with someone… But for me, who is this someone? I am yet to hit the bull’s eye…

My eyes are still hunting for that someone…

1 comment:

Unknown said...

no onyx.no jade stones either.golden words of wisdom are not what you need.

silence.silence is often more eloquent than a thousand words.